#CES: Did I mention on Thursday I am going to be trained by a dominatrix at a brothel?

NSFL

Jan 7

<editorsnote> Hey mom and dad, just throwing it out there that you're prolly not going to want to read this story. I mean I know you're proud parents and all, but it's Vegas and ... yeah. Love you, but leave.

... Now.

... Right now.

K bye. </editorsnote>

True story, and even funnier this all started WHILE I was in a session with a slave.

oooooohhhhhhh this shit is going to be wild.

So, a week or so ago I was in a session with a slave ignoring him and responding to the daily emails, one of which was sent to me via a buddy I used to work with.

Don't judge me, read the title of the email.

This is going to be GREAT, I thought.

I open it up and see a press release for Sheri's Ranch, a fantasy fulfilment brothel located just outside of Vegas.

I look through their website and see the option for a BDSM fantasy.

OMG OMG!!! They have ACTUAL dominatrixes here!

<tangent> I am a domme not a dominatrix. Dommes don't get paid for their services while dominatrixes are pros and will most of the time have sex with their slaves as well. Mine are merely foot slaves. </tangent>

One of my current goals is to better myself as a domme. I want to learn from a pro and learn some more tricks of the trade if you will.

Being a domme isn't just an excuse to do something "scandalous" and "titillating" to shock and awe people, for me it is an extremely, extremely personal journey that has helped me come into my skin TREMENDOUSLY on both a personal and professional level.

I don't have sex with my slaves, they only worship my feet. I get absolutely, absolutely no sexual stimulation from the experience. Rubbing my feet has about the same effect as putting a q-tip in my ear. The entire process of a session though is an EXTREMELY powerful experience. All of my slaves are super fancy pants dudes. To see these men that are held in such high regard in the community quiver and sometimes even cry in your presence is OUT OF THIS WORLD wild.

It's completely changed my relationship with men. I can stare at a guy on a date and know when I am in the presence of someone who is a sub.

I'd eat you alive, I always think.

The date then quickly ends.

See, I may like dealing with slaves in my personal life but I would never ... and I mean NEVER date a submissive man. I can't do it!!! Sexually speaking I am actually quite submissive. I want a guy that commands my attention and that I genuinely respect. If I don't think you're intellectually up to par, or if I smell that I intimidate you - it's done.

Subs to me are pathetic pieces of shit that I barely let amuse me, and would NEVER EVEN CONSIDER dating.

<tangent> See what happens when I write while listening to my S&M playlist? It's next level shit. Gotta take it down a notch, Friel. </tangent>

Side note: I'd also really like to let my freak flag fly sexually speaking. I do all this CRAZY shit but I'm such a fucking prude when it comes to sex. Sure, I've had threesomes,watched an orgy, but that's nothing. I FOR THE LIFE OF ME can't talk dirty in bed without laughing hysterically. This is a true problem though when you've been single for so long. I haven't developed enough trust with men sexually to allow anything like that to even happen. I really, really want to work on that for 2013.

Anywho, so it's not my preference dating wise, but because it is helping me so much grow as an individual I thought why not expand my noggin and try to be the best domme I can be!

I then hit my buddy back up and asked if I could come in for a visit.

Not a problem, he said. We have to specially arrange a professional photographer to come in as we can't have you video or take pictures.

Dude, I totally get it, I say back to him. I need to document this because, well, I document my life - but this is for me more than anything.

Great, he said. Let's book you for Thursday.

So now, this is officially happening. They're apparently picking me up in a car and taking me to the brothel which is about a 45 minute drive, and I will be able to have full access to everything and get to talk to some of the girls.

I only dominate a slave about once a week, I can't even IMAGINE how insanely powerful these women must be getting to do something like this on such a regular basis.

Wild.

Thanks to everyone over at Sheri's for trusting me with such an incredible opportunity. I promise to be as discreet as possible.

This is going to be an INCREDIBLE CES!!!!! So. Freaking. Excited!!

See everyone starting tomorrow!!! xoxo

"sticks and stones may break my bones but chains and whips excite me."