They're Talking Nerdy Baby: #NerdsUnite
Wow. Wow. Wow. The comments, tweets, and emails today about my date last night have been making my LIFE!!! Thank you guys so so so so much for the support. (If you haven't read the latest, this dude made me fucking cry, man. I never cry ... ever. He kicked me while I was down TWICE IRL, and then once on skype.) It's funny, I'm currently helping out Marni at @WingGirlMethod with her social media, and we just had our weekly call - she goes, does that dude have aspergers?? I started laughing so hard. hahaha, no, he's a rad dude - but we were clearly sending 100 mixed messages to each other, and then we were both radically honest which was just a recipe for disaster.
Horrible.
Horrible.
Horrible. Date.
Worst ever, want nothing to do with the dude.
But yeah, read the story here - and here's a bitchin email I got in response from it that I wanted to share ...
Couple of things.
I won't post about a dude that I like until I feel him out a bit. I would never ever ever post on a dude that I like, or post on things that happened until things were out of "stage 1." I can't do it - it gives an unfair advantage to the dude by being able to hear my inner most thoughts, and takes away the thrill of the hunt.
It. Does. Not. Work. I learned that on my 103 dates, of the 4, there were 2 that I liked a lot, and posted about ... and then they got weird. So lesson learned.
I share my life with the world. Is it weird? Prolly, but for me it's 1 part spiritual, 1 part work, and all parts awesome. I came to life in ways I didn't know were possible when I started this site. I've always had bat shit experiences, and really really really weird encounters - now it's fodder for the site. Ah-mazing! So yeah, that's me, Jen, and my constant. I'm a people magnet, weird shit will ALLLWWAYYYSSSS happen.
Does it effect the pool from dudes that want to date me? 100%
Abso-freaking-lutely it does.
But if something this awesome made me come to life, I don't want a partner in my life in any capacity that isn't interested in being included. I do understand that when I do get in a relationship I will switch into more of a producer mode instead of content creator, but I will cross that bridge when I come to it.
It's absolutely INCREDIBLE though that I can be so down, and instead of wallowing in it, I release it in a post (which is cathartic in and of itself) then I read all the tweets, and emails ... and holy fuckerdy, you all make my life. The support that I have in this community is INCREDIBLE, and to say I am grateful for every second of it is an understatement - I fucking live for it.
So yeah, yesterday sucked. But today is a new day. I am considering moving on from OKC, and exploring other options. We shall see. I'm never ever ever going to give up on finding love. I can't! It's tattooed on my friggen wrist.
I made a lifetime commitment to it.
I love what I do for work, so that part of my life has a big fat checkmark next to it. The rest, I'll figure out. You can't force it, but I know ... I KNOW in my heart, I'll never give up ... I just also won't stop documenting the ride! =) =) =)
Here I go again ...
xoxoxo thanks for reaching out, man. Really appreciate it.