#NerdsUnite: The What If? (Part 6 - The Fall Out!)

<editorsnote> Nerds, meet my buddy Jordan. He was one of the first writers here on TNTML and he's a really rad mofo. I forget how we first started talking - but he lives allllllll the way over in Kansas and wants to talk to you about life from his side of the monitor in the keyword of nerd. I only have one more thing left to say ... HIT IT JORDAN!! </editorsnote>

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It came yet again while I slept, I awoke to yet another Facebook thing. I tell you Facebook is the worst. There it was a single status, “I feel like the guy I like, doesn’t like me. I don’t know what to do.” In that my world came crashing down. Obviously, that was not a line about me. I had lost and I sent her a message saying such. How could you keep me in tow when you were chasing someone. See I always thought we were vying for her affection. Turns out she had her heart set on this bartender. I told her I never had a chance, if she was chasing someone else. I left for work and got an Email later that day apologizing for her fault at not letting me know the whole situation better. That I really deserved to have been the victor. I was everything she should want in a guy, but the heart wants what the heart wants. I have taken to understanding that statement as... I’m fucking retarded. Trust me I have had many a girl tell me such. I tried staying friends with her via Facebook after that, but she would post pictures of her and him and it would crush me. This all came after my final trip to see her, where she had introduced me to Adele. Thus where this rant on Adele came from.  She had also convinced me to help her win a Trip to a resort based on a love story.  Which I had actually penned going so far as to detail how we got engaged as she had made it clear we would need to be to fool those in charge of the trip. So there I was heart-broken, beaten, and lost. With a fake narrative of how I could have won her as my wife. Over the next three months I put my life back together and saw another girl for a bit. My heart just wasn’t there and I stopped that before she got more attached. I vowed never to go back to Wichita again.

Just because my life always seems to throw me into things I guess it decided I had things I needed to resolve. I ended up winning a competition my work had thrown for best dish for a list of new menu items. I work for Carlos O’Kelly’s, a Mexican restaurant chain that started here in Kansas and as luck would have it is located officially in Wichita. OF COURSE!!!! Well I wanted to take a vacation and get away from all this crazy shit. I took off for LA to visit my friends out there and for Doll’s Birthday. I had Facebooked Ophelia a while back that I felt that I had gotten better and I wish we could re-start our friendship. Why throw away 10 years for no decent reason other than a failed romance. She had actually messaged Cherry to ask her opinion on the matter. At this point Cherry HATED her. She asked me what to say back. I told her it was cool and so she never answered. Which is a very Cherry thing to do. While I was in LA hanging out with Jen Friel at the Beanery I got a notification on my phone. She wanted to re-friend me on Facebook. Jen can tell you my whole countenance changed in an instant. I had no idea what to do and of course asked Jen her opinion.  I re-friended her, why have that spoil a vacation. She had accompanied it with a short, “Hope we can be friends again and I miss you.” message. When I ran into Jason Bateman she commented on that as well. She was back in my life. My friends were not excited. I was rather confused as well to her sudden desire to be all buddy-buddy.

This happening of course in LA while I am with Doll, whom I was still attracted to as well. So that was burdensome. Doll was in a way the reason Simone and I broke up. While I was in LA the time before that, Simone’s jealousy of Doll was so intense that it nearly ruined that trip.  I had at the time talked her down from that, only to have it flare up after the pictures of Jen, Doll, and some of my other LA friends hit Facebook. I am telling you when it comes to relationships, Facebook is destructive to me. It comes from my hatred of censoring my life. See I am a fiercely loyal man. You would never have to worry about me cheating on you even if the chance was there. Still I have a lot of very attractive friends. This plays to making a girl rather uncomfortable. Oh well the girl I’m looking for will trust me and I won’t ever give her a reason not to.  Upon returning to Kansas I told her about my forced trip to Wichita for this commercial and she said she would like to meet up and catch up. Cautiously, I found myself driving back to that evil town to face the girl that had torn me to pieces in a vicious love game.

Next up part 7 - Falling For The 5th Time, #facepalm 

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