#Fact: It is super frustrating balancing your slave's schedules
I can't begin to tell you how frustrated I am with the foot fetish community. I'm throwing myself at the mercy of those in this community that understand the fetish to see if I am doing something wrong. (I am always always always about taking ownership.)
So, first of all - if you don't know I am currently a DIY domme. (I am not doing this for sexual purposes, but rather as an expression of personal truth.) I still have problem vocalizing my feelings and what better way to get over it than to literally humiliate and objectify a dude. GO LIFE GO!
I have currently filled 5 of the 7 open positions and while the slaves have been fantastic at their emails, and even surprising me with gifts from my amazon wishlist (it's part of the culture for a slave to bring a gift to their mistress before the session begins. All gifts are STRICTLY for s&m purposes.) - but when it comes to meeting up something ALLLLWWWAAAYYYYYYSSSS seems to come up.
Look at this email thread from this afternoon ...
I am the QQUUUEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNN of getting the fact that shit happens in life. I get it, it happens to us all, and I can COMPLETELY empathize - but this KEEPS HAPPENING OVER AND OVER!!! My instinct as a domme is to move on and not talk to them again, but I genuinely like this slave and am SUPER into dominating him. Is this a thing? Should I be bitchy back? He wants me to respect him when we're outside of "the scene" which I totally get - but this is bullshit. He cancelled on me 15 minutes before we were supposed to meet and at that point I had already gotten ready. Before each slave I have to get ready as the domme on both a psychological and physical level. I was 100% ready to go and BOOM, AGAIN he cancels. Do I just need to be feeding my pipeline better and find more slaves so this isn't an issue? I don't get what gives and I don't understand why SO MANY OF THEM beg you for your attention but the SECOND you give it to them and allow them to worship you they freak the fuck out.
Help, help, help!! I know a lot of you are in this community. I GENUINELY don't know what to do, and I'm GENUINELY wanting to better myself in this scenario.
Many thanks!
#thatisall
