#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick
Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.
#nowplaying: Laura Jansen - Use Somebody
Oh goodness. Getting me to write this story about Noah is like fucking pulling teeth. Don't get me wrong, I see the added value of walking towards anything that makes me uncomfortable - but I have to be honest with the community, that this is one of THE most difficult stories to write. It actually has less to do with Noah and more to do with the fact that he was the catalyst to my nervous breakdown in February of 2007. (So far, part 3 is up til September of 06). I'm discovering that I am still harboring shame around having a nervous breakdown. (read more about that here) It just was, and it was just part of the evolution I experienced to being the person that I am today, but reading day by day how taking lithium effected me is just fucking GNARLY!!! Even in reading my journals, you could tell I was in for something deep, but if anyone would have ever asked me at the time how I was doing my response would have always been the same ... "I'm fine."
Crazy.
And furthermore, I don't know how I managed to kick so much ass in sales at the time with my inner monologue being so dark. There is nothing about where this story is going that doesn't freak me out, but I am committed to writing it, so that I shall do - and when all is said and done hopefully I will have a release from it. Noah just sparked a match - so so so much of this actually didn't have anything to do with him.
AHHHH!! Life.
Meetings this morning, then I'm going to a taping of The Big Bang Theory. Pretty stoked, apparently there is a top secret guest star or something pretty rad. The Big Bang Theory warms my soul. Not only is the cast just unbelievably rad, but when I set up the SEO for this site I SPECIFICALLY did it to reach the online reputation manager for the show, and the DAY, I mean the DAAAAYYYYYY I was moving out of my apartment about to go on my year long journey of urban camping I heard from a friend who also happened to be friends with Kaley Cuoco that the cast was a fan of the site. Bottom line, I had accomplished my goal of getting to them. (Read more about the exclusive livestream over yonder) Like seriously?!?! Seriously?!?! It was SOO dramatic too, I was crying like a MOTHERFUCKER on the phone literally putting each bin into the Ford Fiesta. Hilarious, and will be another story to tell you all on another day.
But very very very excited to get to see the show tonight. My first one. YAYY!!!!! Just working hard hustling nerderinos. Today is a new day, the sun is shining - and I have 86,400 seconds of work to get done. WHOOP WHOOP!!
Oh, and it looks like I'll be in Boston next monday the 3-10th. I'm hopefully booking my ticket this morning, but I'm going in this time with a COMPLETELY different approach, and honestly, a very very very aggressive shooting schedule. I also have to meet with the local press and what not. AHHH!! So much going on. But yah, if you guys live in Boston and want to be involved with the show - hit me up. I'm still working on my treatment, but I'll totally need cool bodies to be in it.
Much much much love to you all. Thanks for the support, and thanks for being so gosh darn awesome.
Peace love and lollipops