#Fact: Getting older is weird

Nov 2

<editorsnote> This is a completely random post on all of the thoughts I have in my head right now surrounding age. It is going to jump around, and might not fully make sense ... but I don't care, I am owning it, and this is what is inside of me right now at this moment. So nah ne ... nah ... ne ... poop ... y. </editorsnote>

In a few minutes, this website turns two years old. I don't honestly know how two years has gone by since I started it on my roommate's bed in 2009, but my iCal and Facebook anniversary reminder have notified me that YES in fact two years has gone by.

<tangent> I noticed when I clicked on someone's profile and they were in a relationship I would always always always view their sig-o's profile as well - so when I launched the site, I married myself to a dummy "talk nerdy" account where I synced the RSS feed to populate in the notes. This way, more people would be exposed to the content. Totally worked. YAY LIFE! </tangent>

I'm currently 26 years old, and in a month to the day almost exactly I will be 27 (WOOWWW that's crazy), and this whole getting older thing is still confuses me.

The whole notion of time confuses me in general. It is this tangible reminder that spatially speaking memories of present are becoming farther and farther apart, but it's kind of bullshit.

I operate on my own clock.

I write when I feel creative, I take meetings when I can fit them in, and I operate from pretty much anywhere in the world. Outside of my circadian rhythm and the few extra gray hairs that pop up (mother fuckers) I very genuinely have no idea that time is even passing. This year - HOLLLLY MOLLLYYYY did it fly by.

I live in a world of creative impulse, and inspiration - and one to do list. Literally ... just one. It's not even that packed, as I like to allow for spontaneity, yet it holds me accountable for all the things it takes to run this business, get everything done, and also it helps to alleviate anxiety. For reals, man - I will ALWAYSSSSSS have people to email, things I need to do ... whatever. YOU. HAVE. TO. LEARN. TO. PRIORITIZE. AND. SET. EXPECTATIONS. WITH. PEOPLE.

I eat when I'm hungry, sleep when I'm tired, write when I feel creative, and "work" every other minute of the day. I say "work" of course because it's complete BS. I laugh that I get to do this all day every day, because to me - it's all built around my personality. For anyone else doing it, for SUURREEE they'd prolly want to gouge their eyes out, but I'm a pretty happy little clam.

I'm excited to get older on the one hand because people in my family actually do get more attractive with age. True story, I look like my great grandmother who was a CLONE for Liz Taylor. Dudes, she was hot til she died ... I'm pretty much not mad at that.

I wouldn't ever want to go back to being any younger (bitches be crazy in their early 20s), but I guess it's normal to fear the unknown.

27 is going to be the best year of my life. There is no doubt about that. This business is COMPLETELY taking off, and holy shit, now I'm 26, almost 27 with a new media production company! How did that happen?

I'm tired. I need to sleep, but I just want to say thank you. For reals, all the tweets - comments - emails - I read everything, and I can't get enough. I say this all the time that I still can't believe this worked, but I really mean it. Follow your dreams. Follow your goals. Follow your passions. This is my piece of the world, (it's weird, sometimes moody, mostly bubbly, peppered with mild sexual frustration) what does yours look like?