#TrueStory: I've never had a Valentine

Jan 25

Beauty is isolating. Seriously. Being commercially attractive by society's standards is a very weird thing. (Please note, I do say that as humbly ... but incredibly matter of fact as possible.) Men are afraid to approach you, and women think you are a bitch. You basically operate in your own little world. I know ... world's smallest violin, eh? Oh trust ... I'm not complaining ... it can also open a lot of doors ... jigga jigga jigga!

I've spent my entire life being very focused. I never had a boyfriend growing up, because I was either launching one of my many side businesses (I had a little babysitting thing going on, and when I was 8, I launched "Computers Anonymous," this program where I could teach old people how to type, edit a wordperfect doc, and I believe even use Prodigy at the time. I had a notebook, and official letterhead. I felt SO special, and official!!!), or in a dance class. Don't get me wrong though ... I was TOTALLLLLYY boy crazy, the hormonal part started very early.

I've spent literally my entire life in this constant state of contradiction. I am a hopeless romantic, but understand that you create your own destiny, and this notion of "another half" being out there is just weird. I'm not a fan of chivalry in any regard, unless some dude at a bar won't leave me be, then 5 across the eyes is a welcomed treat. Please don't open my car door, I find it to be terribly inefficient, but opening the door to a restaurant or anything else is just common decency. I don't like Disney movies, and don't subscribe to the notion of a "happily ever after" ... yet wouldn't mind being swept off my feet from time to time.

I want someone to do something because it came from a place of inspiration, and not a Hallmark commercial.

I've spent my entire adulthood dating a series of not nice guys. I get it now, but it took me this last year to truly understand that I dated not so nice guys because I didn't accept and love myself. No descent guy stood a chance. They say nice guys finish last? Only if the women of the world don't understand their own value and understand that they deserve a nice guy. Bad boys are popular for a reason ... cause bitches be crazy!!! HA! I won't hate, I was one of 'em.

Take the focus and determination and pepper it in with modeling and all the other commercially appealing but psychologically isolating conditions I volunteered myself for, and it equals to 26 years of not a single Valentine. I had been in relationships in the past during Valentines day - but the only one that was serious enough had to travel for 2 weeks during February. Yep, no Valentines day date.

I want a date on Valentines day, damnit. Do me a favor ... if you like this site, and dig what I'm about ... send me a message on OKCupid. I'm totally serious about this. I want a date on Valentines day, but clearly not just anyone. Fill out the personality profile, and make sure we're a match and all that fun stuff. This would totally be a weird nerdy dream come true for me that I would greatly greatly greatly appreciate. Also, please don't think "oh you're going to get so many messages why should I even try ..." You'd be surprised. Please just send. I'll respond. Thank you in advance.

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