The life of a #lifecaster ... keep on keepin on
I get a lot of emails, tweets, and general messages on unidentified platforms anytime I seem "off." It makes me smile, realizing that I am doing my job. My job as a lifecaster is to be able to tell a story across social media in real time, while putting all of the pieces together on this blessed little website enabling you to live vicariously through my eyes. That's it.
I don't ever judge things as being good or bad. Some days I have higher energy days than others ... usually pretty dependent upon the amount of Diet Dr. Pepper I've been chugging ... but other than that, it has nothing to do with you. I appreciate your support, but I say as humbly as possible that it defeats the purpose of the experiment. It's real life, in real time peppered with nothing but real and raw emotions. For me, it keeps me sane and creates accountability for the thoughts in my head ... but again, it has nothing to do with you. I appreciate you all reading, and if you can take something away from it - AWESOME! But I'd still be doing it anyway. There really is no "good" or "bad" day in my world; I am just grateful that there is a day to even associate with. Yay the sun for rising today! Good job, beyotch!
For as extroverted as I am, I am definitely equally introverted. I just do my own thing. I have no idea the psychological ramifications of that decision, but I dig it - so I'm just going to go with it. I like processing these thoughts in my brain free of others. I spent my entire life doing everything I was told, and appeasing others. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm over it. Again, its either the craziest thing I've ever done - or the sanest. I'm still conducting the social experiment, so I dunno. I can say though, its looking pretty good.
I just don't find people that often that I can relate to on an emotional level. It sucks actually, a lot. Dude, I'm just a weirdo Deniro that I can meet anyone, anywhere, and find like ground ... but when it comes to a solid connection, those are few and far between. People are attracted to your energy when you're doing your own thing - but it sucks because you have to weed through hundreds to find 1 that you click with.
I can be in a room filled with 100 people wanting to talk to you, but sometimes I just don't have anything to say back. It's an energy thing. You can feel when it resonates, and when it doesn't - I'm done. I just walk away. It's that whole no attachment thing, can rub a LOT of people the wrong way.
It's just part of the job that I signed up for. I make no excuses for it, but just try to explain how I am processing it all. Thanks again for the messages though - I do read them.
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