Total #buzzkill
#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @JenSquard
I'm bummed. I hung out with the family today, and this whole lifecasting business came up. I had talked to my mom about it before I started, and she was totally on board. She has read my stuff in the past, and was all about it. Today when we talked about it she said, "Yeah, some of your posts are......interesting."
I knew right away she was talking about the shoplifting post. She told me she knew at the time that I was lying, but there's just not much you can do when it's your kid. I don't know....the whole thing just upsets me. I believe that she knew I was lying at the time and didn't know what to do about it. I guess my issue is with the tone. She was and is the person that I worry about reading these lifecasts. There are so many ugly things that I would like to talk about, but so much of it I don't want my mom to have to see, and I don't want her to judge me for it. What do I do about that? Tell her I don't think she should read this new part of my life? How can she support me in this new adventure if I don't let her experience it. Should I pick and choose the posts that I invite her to read? Or just get over it, and let her see things that I am okay with everyone else but her seeing?
I just don't know what to do, and I'm sad that my previous post wasn't well-received, which out of everything I have to say, is one of the mildest. Uuuuuggggh. I knew this was something I would have to face eventually. I just didn't think it would be so soon. Maybe my feelings get hurt too easily, and maybe I am being too sensitive, but this is a big part of my life right now, and I don't want to half-ass it one way or the other.