#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick
Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.
#nowplaying: Goo Goo Dolls- Let love in
BAHHHH!!!!! What a day!!!!!! I am stuck somewhere between so effin excited, and the reality that the work has barely begun. Just got off the phone with the parentals, and the WEIRDEST part about all of this, is that everything is entirely independent, but under one nerdy umbrella. I have THREE BIG BIG BIG projects on the VERY front burner, and even a couple on the back - yet, any day each one of those could pop. Today, the film took more of a front seat, but who knows tomorrow AOL could call, or my client who told me back in June about this bitchin project he wanted me for ... this is how things get done. I don't sit there and focus on one of them for too long, I literally have ALL of them going at once and just focus on each moment and what my next do-able action is in all of it. It's honestly the only way you can stay sane.
I was really stressed out for the last few weeks regarding this paperwork for the film, and was even going to just go up to San Fran just to get answers ... but POOF just like that, we got everything we needed. It just amazes me the people that are behind this community, and the people that really believe in what we are doing. The impossible is possible because of you. I kid you not!! It's not a joke!
I have no idea if ANY of this is going to be a success. Success of course being a very personal thing, but by traditional standards lets deem it successful to the point where I no longer have to barter social media to live; it becomes a profitable entity in its own regard. It being the multimedia components of the site, as again, this site will always be 100% traditional advertiser free. Yes, we do have ads on the side of the screen, but those were negotiated under different terms. I want people to be free and comfortable expressing themselves in their own element of unapologetic awesomeness.
But yeah!!! BIG BIG BIG day!!!! So much of this though has to do with attitude. I literally had no idea how we were going to accomplish any of this. I even said over and over to the producers, "I have no idea how, but I will figure it out." I won't give up. This is my life, and to say I eat.sleep.&breathe. it is an understatement. This is the only thing I am capable of conversing about, and very literally the core of everything I believe in, in this world. I would have taken a job in an office, and gotten married and popped out 2.5 kids by now if I didn't think I could make this work. I KNOOWWWWWW I am making it work, its more just a matter of not setting expectations, as that can impair your attitude, and being conscious of the fact that I am very publicly describing how I am doing all of this along the way - and hearing every two seconds, "did you do it yet?" Can def. get on my nerves.
These random thoughts are pretty much my saving grace. It makes all of this tangible for me. I am sincerely as shocked as the rest of the world that this is working. It's completely illogical, but maybe the lack of logic is the new logic. Maybe this is the way ideas, and businesses can launch in social media ... by building a community and inviting them to come along for the journey. I have no idea, and I'm not even going to be cool and try to pretend.
I will tell you this, the world thinks I'm bat shit crazy.
The majority of people have not been supportive, and at least 2 times a day I hear, "but how do you plan on actually getting it done." I'm smart you asshole. I have no fucking clue, but I just stay present and see opportunities that others may not see. I don't know how else to describe it.
Yeah, at this point ... we're good. We're like crazy stupid good. Not that I ever doubted, trust, but the last few weeks have been INCREDDDIIBBLLYY stressful, and today - I can exhale for a minute. That feels good!! =) =) =) ROCK ON NERDS!!! Follow your dreams! If people think you're crazy, keep going, you're doing something innovative!!! =) =) =)
