A nerd just can't win ...

I went to my first mixer last night at CES. It was held at Ice (located at the Venetian) by the lovely folks at intel and lenovo.

I can regale you with the tech specs on some of their products - however, being a Mac girl, aesthetics are key. All of the devices on display last night seemed a bit archaic to me. Have they not updated their designs since my IBM circa 97 when I was still using WordPerfect?

All that aside, I had a phenomenal wake up call last night. I had not one, but two people TO MY FACE say to me there was no way I was here for CES, that I belonged at the AVN awards (for those that are unaware, AVN stands for Adult Video News, and is the porn equivalent to the Oscars). I took it as a compliment, however I was pretty deeply offended. To quote my good ol' friend Jerry, not that there is anything wrong with porn, but COME ON!

I am at the biggest nerd convention of the year. These are my PEOPLE! And to have them question my own nerd credibility is just shocking to me. Have we not met with enough resistance in life in general being plagued with a brain that does not shut off and insists on overanalyzing the most mundane things? Really dude, I need to get it here too?

I get it- I don't fit in; in 25 years I've never fit in. I'm a big girl, it bothered me as a kid, I relish in it as an adult, but is that not the nerd m.o? We've all met with adversities in our every day life, which is the reason why nerds are so loyal and protective.

I don't get bitter about things; I use this as an extreme motivator. It's like in business, if I am told I am crazy, I keep going. It means I am on to something if people have never seen it before and therefore cannot process what I am doing. Trust me, it works.

To top things off, I finally get to meet the co-editor on my absolute favorite site Mashable (@BenParr) and even he questioned my credibility. Don't get me wrong, really nice guy - but he flat out asked me if I was playing things up a bit? My answer: seriously?! The last guy I dated used to call me mashable because every time he would look over at my computer screen, I was on that site.

This isn't a joke to me, this is my life. What about that do you not seem to understand? My excitement and passion for tech and social media? When I believe in something, I will sacrifice anything to see it succeed. I believe in what I am doing so unbelievably strongly, that I arrived at CES with no definitive plans of shelter. I grabbed a sleeping mask in case I had to sleep in a lobby, and knew that out of the 30 plus people I know here, someone had to have floor space for me to crash. You're telling me that isn't hunger? That's not passion? That's not NERDY?!

I am not just "a nerd," I am the new definition of the word nerd. Take a good look - because I don't have sex on camera for a career, I can code my ass off, can walk talk and out nerd any guy under the sun. I started playing on a computer when I was 2, started my own computer company at 8, coded my first geocities site at 12, and finished high school at 16. My best networking isn't just done when I am setting up companies’ internet solutions but rather when I walk into a party knowing no one and walk out with everyone's life stories.

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