#NowPlaying: Bush - Machinehead

Aug 5

Wow. Wow. And wow. I am so UNBELIEVABLY humbled by all of your messages re: my latest post with Antonio.

It was an EXTREMELY difficult evening and day today. If I look at this entire situation objectively I think it all sounds so BONKERS!! We've only known each other for a month, but why does this heart break hurt more than anything I've ever experienced before?? I was falling in love 24 hours ago meeting Antonio's family, and now I'm back here again? How did this happen??

I'm EXTRAORDINARILY blessed to have SOOO many wonderful friends and such an amazing community. Thank you all so so so much for the emails and texts especially. I'm genuinely not able to reply to anything yet. It's less to do with the dramatics and more to do with the fact that if I don't answer them, maybe it means it didn't happen.

I had a great rehearsal today with the guys for our live show (NEXT SHOW IS FRIDAY NIGHT AT 8PM IN HOLLYWOOD!!) but now I'm back in my apartment trying to remember to breathe.

This song helps ...