#NerdsUnite:The What If? (Part 7- Falling for the 5th Time, #facepalm)
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The whole process for shooting a commercial is hurry up and wait. I stayed in outfit just sitting around waiting to take a picture, do this for a camera, or do that. So when we got out that night rather late the guy they had me roomed up with was... unsavory. So I was in no rush to hang out with him. Ophelia said she would meet me in Old Town. It’s a lot like Aggiville for Wichita. We went out to eat at a place called, “The Anchor” Great food. We tripped over the formal pleasantries and afterward walked around looking for a place to Drink. Finding a few we gave birth to new confidence through the bottle. Our conversations lengthened and we finally started hashing out our drama. I was very honest with her about the whole situation. She told me the reason she wanted the Bartender was because he was emotionally distant and un-invested. The tone of her voice said... too distant. The night was coming to a close and we ended going back to her place. Upon entering I saw my art and letters all out on the table. Obviously, she had read through and reminisced about us. Truly, there was no way she knew I would come back to her place that night. She led me to her bedroom and told me not to get any ideas. With a smirk we laid down together and cuddled right back up. Like, we always had. The way she held me, spoke to her affection for me. I asked her about all my stuff on the table. She told me how much she missed us. I stayed till the next night and before I left she told me she loved me, just not the way I wanted her to. I thanked her for finally saying out loud that she loved me. She responded by saying I always knew she loved me. I did, but it was nice to hear. Keep in mind we still didn’t have sex. As much as I would have loved tool, I don’t cheat, nor do I sleep with girls in relationships.
It wasn’t more than a few weeks after that when the relationship with the Bartender ended. Obviously, I didn’t see that coming. Note the sarcasm all over those words. She invited me back to help her move out from her place. I said sure. That night when we hit the bars she and I danced, she grabbed my hands again, and kissed me again. I was confused. It had taken me a long time to turn my heart off to her and here she was turning it on again. That night in bed she told me she couldn’t promise me anything. I told her I never asked her to.
We picked up right where we left off before. This time I was very wary of anything. My guard was up, WAY UP! Bit by bit she chiseled away at my defenses. We ended up going to the Ren fair later that Fall and she kissed me again. Things were going well and I was getting my hopes up again. So I asked her if we could try “us” out. She had resolved her need for a rebound asshole. The next step to me seemed logical. She sent me an email explaining a lot of where she was emotionally, why we never had sex, and why she still felt it was a bad idea. I called her and told her I was ok with it. All I ever wanted was a chance. So she said yes. I was amazed. I couldn’t believe it, I finally got a yes from the girl I had liked for so long. That night was a good night.
Stay tuned for the conclusion in Part 8
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