They're Talking Nerdy Baby: #NerdsUnite

OOOOHHHH the wonderfulness of life that grants gifts of awesomeness like this in my inbox in ze morning. Check check 'er out! 

First off, thank you so so much for reading and thank you so so much for reaching out. Incredibly brave on all fronts. (FTR this is the post this email is referencing) 

Noah's story wasn't easy to write out but I felt it was important since technically speaking it has to date been my only "committed" relationship. (Funny because I WAS committed during our relationship.) 

The hell I lived in for 24 years was the hell I created for myself. I was so esconced in anxiety, and depression, that I LITERALLY had no idea how to escape. I didn't want to die, I just had NO idea how to live. 

My parents had taken me to doctor after doctor but it wasn't until I decided THROUGH AND THROUGH FOR MYSELF to make a change that my life has since done a 180. 

I didn't want to die that day, or even the other time I tried killing myself - I. just. wanted. an. escape. from. the. pain. 

What was the escape? Following my bliss!! 

I don't at all consider what I did brave, I LITERALLY didn't have an option. I SUUCCKKKEEEDDD at dying so instead of focusing on that, why not focus on life and living every. single. day. like it was my last. (Especially since if I had succeeded it WOULD have been my last.) 

No one is going to come up to you and give you this gift of this perfect life. No doctor, no job, no boyfriend ... nothing. It is YOU that has to step up TO YOUR OWN PLATE that will get shit done. 

Social media made me soooooooooooo happy!! I GREW UP online (from Prodidy, AOL and yahoo chats). The fact that this was now cool was SUCH a paradigm shift. You owe it to yourself and ONLY to yourself to lead the life you want to lead. I'm SCARED SHITLESS doing what I do everyday but I keep showing up for myself and showing up for my OWN LIFE and based on the purity and love in my heart - the universe keeps granting all of my wishes. 

YOU. HAVE. TO. LET. GO. 

Trust me, your bliss is waiting. 

Next doable action: Follow what feels good. The answers to every question you could ever have in life is already inside of you. By following the path of whatever "feels good" step by step, life will be unfolded to you. 

Live like you are dying ... because guess what? you are! 

#love

Got a question? Email is the best way for me to respond: JenFriel at talknerdytomelover d c