#Fact: Stop trying, start being

Apr 12

Before I started this site, I tried and tried and TRRIIEEDDD so badly, so DESPERATELY for people to like me. I tried fitting in in my own family, and that didn't work. Tried being "cool" in school, and all that lead to was making friends with some seriously shiesty motherfuckers. Tried being perfect, and that lead to a nervous breakdown at 22.

All I know about "trying" is that it takes a WHOLE lot of energy that gets you FREAKING NO WHERE.

Then, on November 3, 2009 I started this site mostly as a fuck you to myself and to the world. I KNEW the way I was living life was "wrong" since all it did was lead me into a deep depression, however, I had no idea how to make it "right."

There is no rule book to this whole journey that we do.

Now, after seeking popularity my entire life and never getting it, the ONE TIME I VVEERRRYYYY GENUINELY don't care, I end up becoming damn popular.

Fucking weird, right?

I used to have an off switch as a lifecaster. I used to be able to go places and not checkin on Facebook places or Foursquare and go a bit below the radar, but literally for MONTHS now, every.single.bar.i.go.to. I will 1000000% either get asked "is this an okcupid date," or "do I know you from somewhere?"

It trips me out.

Like yesterday, on the train!!

What do these experiences teach me about life?

BE. YOU. 100% OF THE TIME. ALWAYS.

I'm just me. I talk about shit that I'm interested in. No one ever ever ever thought we'd go anywhere. I got told 1,000 times morning, noon, and night when I started this site that I was nuts and I was insane for thinking nerds had sex or wanted to talk about sex.

I do what I do for exploration of my current state of consciousness. Not for titilation, just for me! These are the ideas inside of my head, and these are my friends and their views as well. Those thoughts just so HAPPEN to be so painfully honest that they attracted peeps, but for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE that wasn't my intention.

So freaking weird, but so freaking rad.

I knowwwwww some of you out there are thinking about something in a different manner than the way others think right now. Whatever that idea is, whatever you're feeling - EXPRESS IT!!

Start a website, create a presence in social media. The easiest way to do it is on tumblr. Secure a domain, it'll cost you $10, get a free template, and blog away.

I didn't know where this whole journey was going to lead me, but I was brave enough to take the first step into the unknown.

Now, it's your turn. Take this as your mission should you choose to accept. Happiness is a CHOICE, not a destination.