#WTF: Shhhhh, there is a boy in my bed right now ...
HAHAHA!! omg, what a crazy little night (so what else is new). First off, thanks so so so so so so SO much everyone for tuning into the livestream. Like seriously man, you guys make my LIFE!!! That room was PACKED and we're only in week 2!!! Good job nerderinos!! Keep it up!!!
So, what's a girl to do after she's spent an hour talking about sex? Hopefully have some!! Well technically speaking, this date had been planned for weeks - but you get my jist. Remember Cute Boy Chicago? The duderino I had a semi-epic adventure with my last night in Chicago?? WELL, he just so happened to actually not be from Chicago, but from DC - AND DC was on my list of cities that I had been traveling to in the last month, so after we had for reals the hottest sex ever, we agreed to meet up again.
Come to find out the one weekend I was going to be in DC he was actually going to be in LA (where he was born) for a friend's wedding. Like crazy right? SOOOOOOO!!! We agreed to meet up last night, the last night he is in town, and I dunno ... have fun! =)
He let me pick the spot, so of COURSE I picked Barneys. Dude, beer and on Mondays they have karaoke!! SUH-WEET!!!! I'm not really a fan of it for myself, FYI, but I totes dig the energy of people getting up and making butt-tards of themselves. OWN IT PEOPLE!!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!!
So, that happened. We grabbed a couple of beers, each ate a dinky dog - and sometime right around when we were going to leave, I look over at the bar and who do I see? The duderino I took to the Dr. Suzy orgy!!
And no, I didn't participate - I was actually being interviewed, and for the second time in my life I got to hold a dildo sceptor!!
Look at that thing!!
It was our first date, and I dunno - I just didn't vibe him. Super super super nice guy, but he's related to this uber famous duderino, and kinda in this space of - well, one day I'm going to be in the same league, and if I'm famous I don't want people knowing I did ... (insert whatever scandalous thing that could end up on the front page of TMZ)
I can't handle people like that. At all. You're not special duderino, you're just awesome. People don't care. Like for reals, and plus too, the added bonus of the pics/ video/ whatever being "leaked" around the same time as a big blockbuster kinda has a value add. Just own it peoples!!!!!! Stop thinking about the "one day" and live in the present moment!! BAH!!
So that happened. Come to think of it, we might also be friends on Facebook. EEP! I never unfriend, the politics of it is too exhausting for a lifecaster.
I didn't say anything to him, but I'm sure he saw me - I was rocking my Night Owl Spirithood, and that thing gets a fair enough amount of attention ...
You can't really miss me walking into a bar ... like, at all ...
So whatever, I'll own it. Me and the orgy duderino only did a 6th grade make out sesh which was actually way less than Cute Boy Chicago and I were doing at the bar.
YEP!! We were "those" people.
I dunno, man. I'm kinda getting over all of this though. Don't get me wrong, sex with Cute Boy Chicago is fucking AH-MAZING!!! But after spending 30 days on the road ... by myself ... I did some gnarly soul searching and I'm fucking FED UP with not allowing intimate relationships in my life with dudes. Albeit in this case, traveling has been an issue - but for reals, guys have trouble with my transparent life, the same quality that attracts SOOOO many people to me pushes guys away.
Whatever, again, I'll own it - but fuck it gets lonely. Which is like the gnarliest thing ever because here I am talking to literally thousands of you every day, and ... I dunno. I still want that dude to gush to, to take on an epic adventure ... casual sex gets old with anyone. I lead a very very very fulfilled life, and there is just this part of it that is ... void. No bueno, but still contemplating my next doable action.
Expect a new social experiment soon. Something's gotta give, and I have to be held accountable for it.
BAH! Oh life!! Back to the boy that is in my bed. Dudes think it is weird btw when you get on your macbook pro in the kitchen 20 minutes after you've just boned.
#thatisall
