#Ugh: Well, at least I got out of bed

Aug 4

But my mom thinks I'm cool.Well good afternoon sunshines,

Holy fuckerdy - I stayed in bed until 10 this morning. Like TEN! Totes not my style. I'm becoming an early morning up and at'em-er ... just had too much going on lately, and not enough hours in the day. BAHHHHHHHHHHHH-humbug.

Yesterday knocked me on my ass. Like on my, on my, on my ass. It's weird because NOTHING knocks me on my ass.

Dudes, I can walk 11 miles in a 24 hour period with a 40 lb backpack on with all my equipment before my legs PHYSICALLY cannot move anymore. Literally ... I've totally tested that shit out!

Seeing my first love, and the current dude I'm dating going to see coldplay without me proved to be too much for my system. Like how lame is that right? But it's the truth. I sincerely sobbed ... and I mean SOOBBBBEEEEEDDDDDDDDD myself to sleep last night. Goodness gracious I haven't cried like that in years. That was like the gut, from the tip of your toes cry where you sound like a baby seal being tortured. I'm glad Romeo is happy ... I really really really am - it's written all over his face, I just can't handle dating anymore. I understand people make mistakes, the Coldplay cutie has been texting me all morning, but I dunno. The timing of his fuck up couldn't have been ANY worse. Like SERIOUSLY!!! What a fucking day.

Also, I'm going through a big change in my life right now. I've worked really hard on this site for the last 21 months, and it's finally starting to pay off. (Not that getting to do what you love all day every day isn't pay off enough - but a pay off in the sense that I don't have to eat ramen anymore. SCORE!) We're becoming a business and it's stressful - but mostly I'm just excited. Finally a challenge! I'm totally ready for it, and hungry to learn from the team that is going to come on board.

I'm going to pull myself up by my bootstraps and keep on going ... but somedays, yeah - it sucks. My heart hurts right now. I'm not saying that what happened last night with the Coldplay cutie is necessarily a deal breaker, but it is a pretty big frowny. Again, I feel like more than anything the timing on it was just god awful, and that wasn't his fault. He's a pretty cool guy ... I'm willing to still stick it out, but fuckkkkk man. I got kicked in the gut yesterday. Kicked in the fucking gut.

Well, here I go again ... new day, just gotta keep believing; remember, life is reflective and has to meet the expectations you've set for it.