#NerdPr0nz: Behind the Scenes with @MeowMistiDawn
<editorsnote> Misti Dawn is the nerdiest girl working in porn. In this column she invites you inside of her world outside of the sets, and inside her heart. awwwwwwwwww </editorsnote>
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Hello Nerdites!
Well, perhaps it was the highs of Comic Con that made this week such a low. Not to sound like a downer, but this week was pretty rough. Although I did assist at Meltdown Comics for a show with Grant Morrison, My Chemical Romance, and My Morning Jacket, which was amazing. I just have been in a relationship and work funk for the week. You know spells you have where you don’t want to do anything because frankly what is the point? Yea, that’s my week.
The week started off with Michael working all week of course, but after Monday I found out he was working on the werewolf movie we were both promised a role in. Shock shock, I didn’t get it. But the part that upset me the most was my friend who was making it didn’t bother to tell me but told my roommates two weeks ago and Michael was told on the 15, but in his head even though it had started filming he thought I still had a chance in being casted. I wish I knew how that made sense in his head but it did. So obviously I was upset about that because it was a role I was really excited about and didn’t get but again all of my friends from the last movie did. I never got a straight answer from my friend as to why I didn’t get casted, she just blamed someone else and back and forth. I get that people don’t want confrontation and dealing with issues, but its life. I’m hurt no one was just honest with me, even still. If you didn’t want me for your movie its fine, but can someone give some constructive critism as to why? Is it something I can fix? Is it something I can’t do anything about? At least I’m trying to turn a negative in to a positive, hey I didn’t get it this time, and what can I do to fix that. Instead, it’s just a big waste of everyone’s time.
So that caused some rifts between Michael and I. He didn’t understand that I don’t need to have someone tell me over and over it’s going to be ok and it’s going to happen when it’s not. I don’t need rainbows and unicorns, I just need honest and a reality I can live in. I’d rather prepare for the worst and hope for the best than live in Care Bear land.
The rest of my week was spent being pissed at my husband and not getting much sex. Which is okay because I was so twisted up inside with ginger rage that sex would have been my head spinning and doing some Indiana Jones style heart removal.
Saturday we went to doctor Suzy’s, which is always fun. I took Jay for the first time and we had a really good time. We sat around and chatted. He has some years and experience on Michael. He’s already been married as well. He’s trying to help me understand where the 27 year old man’s psyche is. Which is not anywhere but up its own butt, ha. But as I get older I really start to feel the differences in the way women and men think and feel. I think the biggest problem we have in our relationship is relating to one another. It’s like looking at the same painting but when asked to describe it we each see a different picture. Just because it wouldn’t hurt your feelings doesn’t mean it wouldn’t hurt mine and vice versa and you have to relate to that to make it in a relationship. But can men and women ever really do that?
AND I got my twitter back finally! Thank you!
Nerdily Yours,
Misti Dawn
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