#NerdsUnite: Confessions of an Unwed Bride
#TalkNerdyToMeLover's Julie Wilson
Editor's Note: Julie Wilson recently endured an agonizing break up with her fiancée after being together for 8 years. She is now in her late 20s and confused about what to do next. These are some of her frustrations, and ways she is attempting to heal from her loss.
Music rules my life. It’s what I read (I own every Rolling Stone magazine from the last 14 years, my extracurricular activity in high school (marching [flute & mellophone], concert [oboe] and jazz band [trumpet]) and College (I worked in News, PR, and was a DJ for my college radio station WVFS) and now my current job in concert promotion.
Just hearing a song can transport you to a certain time, place or even a person.
These are the songs that carried me through some of the hardest months of my life.
Tori Amos “Cooling”
“This is cooling faster than I can”
Yep. My relationship was dead and I had no idea.
Cold War Kids “Louder Than Ever”
It’s a shame that sometimes you finally wake up and really see the other person, yourself and the relationship, but it’s just to late.
Tori Amos “Putting The Damage On”
“But now I’ve got to worry cause boy you still look pretty when you’re putting the damage on”
Nothing makes you feel more like shit then when you want the person that is ripping your heart in two so, so very badly.
Holcombe Waller “Risk Of Change”
“Home on the range, who knew life could be so strange
All boils down to a risk of change
Pick up the pieces of your life and rearrange”
Because it is so hard to change and move on.
Adele “Rolling in the Deep”
We broke up right when we finally both had good jobs, right when I felt like the world could be ours.
Low “Try to Sleep”
Just a good, sad sounding song.
Stevie Wonder “All in Love Is Fair”
“Love’s a crazy game
Two people vow to stay
In love as one they say
But all is changed with time
The future none can see
The road you leave behind
Ahead lies mystery”
Mumford & Sons “White Blank Page”
“But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart.”
Metric “Gimme Symphathy”
“Oh seriously, you’re gonna make mistakes you’re young”
Does 28 still count as young? sigh.
Cat Stevens “How Can I Tell You?”
“Wherever I am girl, I’m always walking with you
I’m always walking with you, but I look and you’re not there
Whoever I’m with, I’m always, always talking to you
I’m always talking to you, and I’m sad that
You can’t hear, sad that you can’t hear.”
He’s actually singing about not being able to tell someone how he feels, but since it’s lame/inappropriate for me to tell my ex how I feel, it fits.
Carolina Liar “I’m Not Over”
Fun song that actually makes me not feel so bad about thinking about my ex every.single.second. of every.single.day.
Jeff Buckley “Last Goodbye”
“Must I dream and always see your face?”
The Airborne Toxic Event “Sometime Around Midnight”
Really, really listen to the lyrics. Such a dead on narrative about seeing your ex out in public with another person and how just seeing the person that your heart aches for with someone else can just break you! I truly fear the day when I see my ex out somewhere around town.
Linda Ronstadt “I Will Never Marry”
“I never will marry
I’ll be no man’s wife
I expect to live single
All the days of my life”
Tick, tick, tick goes my biological clock.
Florence + The Machine “Dog Days Are Over”
This song started being everywhere around March. I loved the song but felt like I couldn’t really, truly sing along as these most certainly were the dog days for me. So I waited, knowing that one day that song would be prime time for me. It wasn’t until just before May that I got a roommate and realized that I would be okay. I drove to work the morning of April 29 blasting it and finally thinking, “I’m really sad, but I’m going to be okay”.