#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick
Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.
#nowplaying: Edge of Glory - Lady Gaga
Hello sexy lover faces. In Connecticut I be. See ... this is me ...
Kind of an emotional day - hence the extra photo filter.
I'm totes behind schedule on production. I've been hired as producer and talent on this super cool TV show, but the problem is that TV isn't at all glamorous ... no, like seriously. I've worked as a producer on a bunch of things, and as host/talent for a bunch more ... but this is my first time doing something so big as both. Kinda rad, but kinda AHHHHHHH at the same time. Production is a LOT of work. Like a lot a lot. And especially for TV, you have to location scout, have releases signed for said location, and every single face you capture filming - it's kind of a cluster fuck. Compound that element with travel (my hotel wound up falling through last minute, fortunately I get by with a little help from my friends ...), and car rental (the credit card didn't go through, so I had to use my own debit card - whiiichhhh as we all know has very little). So all this fuckery is going on behind the scenes, but you have to IMMEDIATELY flip the switch and go ... HI GUYS!! I'm JEN!!! Bright eye and bushy tailed without looking too psychotic.
It's a lot. Add to that the fact that I haven't been back here in so long, and it was just an incredibly emotional day.
I saw my uncle today for the first time in almost 10 years - his jaw hit the floor. He couldn't believe how different I looked. It was great to see him but kinda weird at the same time. There's always this pink elephant in the room of, hey, we've been estranged for more than half my life - but what's up! I try to practice forgiveness and just let it be ... but it's weird. He mentioned my grandmother and that she was still out of it - and I was like dude, even when she was "with it" the woman and I never got along. (click here to read more on that) It saddens me a great bit that I have very few family members that I actually consider "family" but a lot of people I am biologically related to. It's just a weird thing to accept, and the older I get - the more I still don't get it.
I also went by my old house today ... it's funny, you can't see it really from the street, but oddly enough you can see it from the plane when you're landing at Bradley.
Freaky looking house, but very literally still to this day one of the most breathtaking homes I have ever been in.
Oh, and here's my old bus stop ...
Ah yes, that is where I used to stand with wet hair and in the winter watch the icicles form.
Dude, I so do not miss the weather!! HAHAHA!! YAYYYYY CALIFORNIAAAA!!!!!!
Oh, and totes stoked - I'm going to be doing some stuff with the Suicide Girls, (just writing - not posing haha, I don't have enough tats), and I got invited to this wing girl event with Neil Strauss the duderino that wrote The Game. I may have fallen for his game, but at least now I can learn from the master how exactly he does what he does to never ever fall for something like that again. mwahahaahaha!!! Succkkkaaaaaaaaa!!!
Super stoked man. Totally blessed to be here. Only mildly overwhelmed ... but tomorrow is a new day. I have to film 3 episodes tomorrow, after the clusterfuck that was getting everything set for today. But hey, you live you learn.
We're going to be going out in Hartford tomorrow with a big group of my friends. If anyone is in the area and wants to kick it totes hit me up on Twitter: @JenFriel
Super super super grateful and blessed for the opportunity ... but man oh man oh man ... only if people knew what goes on behind the scenes - it's madness I tell you. MADNESS!!!!!!!!! =)