#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick
Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.
#nowplaying: Rihanna/ Calvin Harris - We Found Love
Nerds, meet Rocky Balboa Friel. Rocky ... meet the nerds! A hoi hoi duderinos!!! What's kickin!
I've been having a blast here the last few days in Florida. I decided after the insane year I've been having to have a SUPPPEEERRRRR mellow and chill bday; I spent all yesterday with my family, and topped the evening off drinking by the ocean kicking it with my doggie (who stays with my parents while I have all of my crazy adventures. I rescued him when he was two - he's now almost 8.) reading Steve Job's bio.
Suh-weetness!!
Could not have been better - what a great night. And thank you all so, so, so, so, SOOOO much for all the birthday wishes! Way to be the raddest community on the PLANET!!!
Doh! Not up the nose!!! For reals, man - for the first 17 years of my life I cried every. single. birthday. because of the people my dad grew up with, and now to be wished happy birthday by so many people in social media is just the greatest feeling ever. I can't remember a time I felt so loved. Thank you so so so so SO much for that. Really meant the world to me.
Oh! and I totes tried to reply to everyone who posted on my Facebook wall, but the way things get grouped now in Timeline, it very literally would not let me go down past a certain number of messages. It was really fucking lame actually, and potentially a bug - I'm going to email Facebook about it. It was SOOOOO annoying last night!! I figure if someone is kind enough to take the time and message you Happy Birthday, I could at least be kind enough to thank them back!! Sure it takes time, but I do it every year.
Massive fail Facebook. MASSIVE!!!
Bah!
So, that happened. I have to admit though, one thing that kinda sucked about yesterday was that the duderino I had been dating for the last few months quietly didn't even message me. Super duper lame sauce, and definitely a deal breaker. We'll stay friends for surrrreeeeee - but yeah, no. I am SOOOOO frustrated with dating. I swear, it's this switch - the second a dude can pick up energetically that a chick is into him (and I say strictly energetically because this guy and I only talked every couple of weeks. So I KNOOOWWWW he had no idea because I didn't say shit! Nor did I post on it!) he backs off. It's weird! But again, what in me was attracted to that. I gotta take responsibility for it.
I'm excited too, I heard from a new dating coach yesterday. Going to call him back tomorrow, but he reached out to me through the loverly @msmeghanbrown and wants to help with dating.
So fucking frustrating. It very genuinely is. I'm a TOTALLY open person, and so ready for whatever life has to throw at me - but I've been single for EVER! I'm done! I'm ready for another chapter in my life, I really am.
It's a new year soon, and the more that I just focus on myself and the work I can do to better myself the more positve people I will attract. This much I know to be true. It's just very frustrating going out on SO many dates and just staring at these dudes hearing circus music playing in my head.
::doop dee doo doop dee doo::
I view a relationship as a partnership. I don't need someone in my life, but they have to have a value add and not suck. To find a guy that doesn't suck and owns his shit in LA? HAHAHAHAHA nice try!!!!
To even find a guy that likes his life is next to impossible. I can't BEGIN to tell you how many guys say, "oh I love what I'm doing, but if I had a choice I would do XXXX. I'm just waiting for that big break."
THERE IS NO FREAKING BIG BREAK!! You make that shit happen!! BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
So frustrating, and it hurts man - I'm not gonna lie. Whatever, I'll get over it and keep on trucking, but FUCCCKKKKKKKK!!! Stupid boys breaking stupid girl's hearts without even stupid knowing it.
Lame sauce.
On another note, tomorrow I'm going to visit some more of my family and then I head back to LA on Sunday. OMMGGGGG we have SOO much awesomeness coming up for the month of January. Like did you guys know TNTML is in the middle of a redesign right now?? Yep! We're going to look SUPER fancy pants come 2012 and less like "a chick with a blog." Very excited @benparr and I have been working hard. ANNNNNNNNDDDDDDD there is also another HUGE announcement coming for Hollywood nerds in a few weeks. I won't say exactly what it is yet - but it's HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE and very literally a dream come true for me. Shit got real - and now things are going to be FFUNNNNN!!! =)
We're going places, man. I'm not quite sure where exactly that place is, but I sure hope it has BACON!!!!
omg omg omg omg omg omggggggg I need bacon in my life right now. MUST MAKE THIS HAPPEN!!! brb