#NerdsUnite: Confessions of an Unwed Bride

<editorsnote>  Julie Wilson recently endured an agonizing break up with her fiancé after being together for 8 years. She is now in her late 20s and confused about what to do next. These are some of her frustrations, and ways she is attempting to heal from her loss. </editorsnote>

#TalkNerdyToMeLover's Julie Wilson

This is What My Breakup Sounds Like

As I've said before, music is everything to me. As time has gone on, I've acquired a new soundtrack to the heart ache and my current life experiences.

The Seatbelts "Adieu"
"I stand alone, and watch you fade away like clouds
High up and in the sky
I'm strong and so cold
As I stand alone
Goodbye, So long, Adieu."
Cowboy Bebop has a big place in my heart and the soundtrack does as well. Saying good-bye sounds so final, it's easier to say in another language.

Lady Gaga "Bad Romance"
I'm super late to the game with Gaga. I don't usually take pop stars seriously. But this is one bad-ass bitch. There's nothing more gratifying that singing along when she says, "Cause I'm a free bitch baby!"

Cults "Abducted"
"He tore me apart because I really loved him
He took my heart away and left me to bleed out, bleed out
He broke my heart because I really loved him
He took it all away and left me to bleed out, bleed out"

Lissie "When I'm Alone With You"
"Remind me of home when you're around me. The next time you leave don't go without me. No, don't go. No. Yeah! Cuz you make me feel, you make me feel, that you are the one, you are the one. And when I'm alone with you, you make me feel and you make me feel. Yeah when I'm alone with you you are the one and you are the one."
For the part in us that screams, "Please don't go!!"

Delta Spirit "Bushwack Blues"
While I love, love DS this isn't really my soundtrack. It's his. For him it's all in the line "Because my love is strong And my heart is weak after all". For me I like to think he also identifies with the line "Because I think of you In every girl I meet It's no relief"

Belle and Sebastian "Get Me Away From here I'm Dying"
I just want to escape from life sometimes. This song nails that feeling for me perfectly. It even plays in Forgetting Sarah Marshall when he's crying over her.

Sara Bareilles "Gravity"
"Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity"
She's not one of my favs... in fact if I hear "Love Song" one more time I'll explode but this song is amazing.

Dolorean "Country Clutter"
"If you find anything I left behind, well, you can have it"
The price of a break up can vary for each person, each couple. Sometimes you just don't care what got left in the other person's possession, as long as you are free.

Ahn Trio and Susie Suh "All I Want"
"Too many times, I have wondered
What all the tryin' is for.
You come around, I feel so down
I'm gonna drown
'Cause I know that you've fallen short
But do you know
it doesn't change
The way I feel 'bout you, at the end of the day?
'cause I know, that I all I want is what you got.
All I want, is what you got."
I recently went to an AHmazing vaudville burlesque show here in Hollywood with the awesome @christinadeleon and there was a beautiful heart wrenching performance to this song. The kind where you hold your breath until it's over. The dancers did such a good job acting that it made me believe they were going through a break up.

Britney Spears "Stronger"
Because you have to have something to dance to. =)

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