That Nerdy Chick Wants a #Badass
Oh goodness gracious, I had a date last night. It went really well ... however, the foreshadowing prior was a bit creepy. Dude, he totally posted on Facebook like 10 mins before he picked me up "about to do something that I NEVER do." WTH?! Again though, he has no idea my consumption of social media ... which I kinda dig as a novelty, but am also acutely aware that it can't last. I am testing some of my theories out on this dude. Is it sad that I will die lifecasting? We're just told so much bullshit in life, I'd rather use myself as this weird test tube subject to figure out if its actually accurate or not. I don't view it as sacrificial since I do very genuinely enjoy this dudes company ... however I feel like anytime you are testing something out, you can't fully be present. I'm always thinking, this happened ... this happened ... how can I tell this story? It's definitely not normal, but if I enjoy it then I'm just going to keep going with it.
He came to the door, which literally shocked me. I can't even remember the last time anyone actually came to the front door of a dwelling I was inhabiting to pick me up for a date. No call, no text saying "hey I'm here ..." or worse, the honk of the horn. I'd want to say major brownie points, but I'm not that kinda gal. Opening a door, which he also does, does nothing for me. I have two capable arms that can open my own doors ... however if they ever become too exhausted, I wouldn't mind a door here or there opened. Then again let's keep it real, when are you EVER too tired to just open a damn door. Either way ... he's definitely a gentleman, but on me, that's neither here nor there.
I am 100% drawn to the badasses of the world. I don't want someone that oohs and aaahs at my day, I want someone who adds value by saying, wow you thought of that - did you try this? I like challenges, I like being on my toes, I like being pushed to be a better person or to try THAT much harder. Sick and twisted, but why do you think I am in love with Chuck Bass?? Cause and effect ... I get INCRREEDDIIBBLLEE mental stimulation out of what I do everyday, that if someone isn't willing to let go, bend some of the rules, and have some REAL fun with me ... I don't think I'd be game.
This guy is really sweet ... I'm seeing him again this week, but he doesn't have a lot of life experience. I'm 25 almost 26 and they're already basing a TV show off of mine. Albeit, I know that's an EXTREME set of circumstances ... its still my constant.
I told him not to read the site, so I could explore a few things that I was feeling about him on here. We'll see if he listens. I told him that I'm freakishly good at reading faces, so I will know either way ... dude, its so awkward when you know someone has read something you tweeted, or posted - and they go "oh wow ... " or whatever in response. I know you read it, and now I'm reading your face knowing that you read it, and you're pausing slightly now thinking that I know that you know that I read it.
Um yeah.
PS. He was an AAMAAZINNGGG cook btw. Like for reals, I'm still not entirely convinced there wasn't a box somewhere from the groccery store hiding in the trash. It was insane. Being a good cook = major.major.majoorrrrr brownie points!
