#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick
Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.
#nowplaying: Angel- Jack Johnson
Wow, crazy emotional day ... SOO!! I have a shit ton of meetings that I've been juggling for the last month or so - today, I'm just taking up shop at the Corner Bakery by the Beverly Center in LA, and just asking people to meet me here. It's weird not having a car. But super super super grateful that @maniacalmorgan works at the Coffee Bean and was able to give me a ride into LA. Dude, the valley = middle of noooowwhhheereee ... bahhh! I digress ...
Today's a big day. We're getting our first batch of notes on our marketing outline and pilot script. So so so much just blood sweat and tears has gone into this thing from day one. It's so rad to watch it all just kinda click now. At the same time, I'm meeting with another team today to talk to them about documenting the next leg of this journey. I dig lifecasting so so so much - but I can't keep doing it all myself. It's not only exhausting, it's not really the whole objective truth. I want to have someone, somewhere document it a bit more objectively than I can. 2011 is going to be a trippy, trippy ride ... and I want it done right.
I emailed AOL again the other day too ... I love those people, I really really really do ... but they're all just too big for their own good. It's taking SOOOO long! And I don't have any more time. Dude, I met with them at the end of September!!!! Come on, man! I know I'm not your priority, but I'm my priority - and I will absolutely figure out a way to execute this goal. I have a team in place, and we're ready go ... I just don't know if my expectations are skewed being in this space or what - but we're all about getting shit done. I haul ass every.single.day. It's just what we do ... we all thrive off of each other's energy, and I love that at any hour of the day, someone somewhere in my social media network is working too. Keeps me going ...
On top of all of that today, the person that doesn't want their name or illness mentioned but is incredibly incredibly incredibly close to me, had to go in and get their first round of treatments today. So trippy. It's not even that this person has this disease, it's that this person is like MY person. That rock, that constant. This person is crazy stupid young to have this happen, and - wow, I'm totally tearing up in the middle of the coffee shop even thinking about this ... I just, can't believe it. *Whew breathe Jen breathe*
So yeah! Talk about a CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY emotional rollercoaster. I'm so excited and so anxious for this afternoon, and this person just had to go through treatment. Are you kidding me?!? Just gotta compartmentalize as much as possible, and focus on the here and the now. This person has this happening ... awesome sauce. Buddha says, to live is to suffer. We're all dying, some just sooner than others. And again, this person isn't dying any more than you or I ... just has to go through some pretty gnarly shit over the next year or so. Crazy. I won't let it take over my life, and TRUST me this person won't allow it to either. We're not even calling it the actual disease name ... my family made up a nickname for it, which is super cute. But yeah ... crazy time. I should be celebrating and all that, but all the only emotion I can really conjure up is gratitude. I am grateful from the depths of my soul in my last 4 lifetimes. I could kiss the sky, it feels so good to be alive. But man ... what a ride.
And yeah ... that is all. K ... thanks ... bye ...
PS. the guy on the laptop in front of me is totally trying to figure out a way to pick me up. It's pretty funny actually. OMG he totally just did the arm stretch. HAHAHAHA!! He's a PC user ... so its totes mcgotes never going to happen. There's no way I'm going to let him access my hard drive with that kinda software. Sheesh ...