#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick
It's hard being really, really, ridiculously, good looking
Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.
#nowplaying: DMB - You & Me
I am somewhere in between so fucking stressed, and so fucking excited. For real ... I've had this really gnarly anxious feeling all day. Just been so absurdly busy. It's wonderful, and I'm totally not complaining, but it just never ends. And the worst part is, is that it's entirely me. I just always think if I can get x then I can get y. I don't ever believe in settling for anything but my personal best, and I really do think I will be one of those people that will sleep when they die. For reals, I'm just so effin excited.
AHHHH!!! I need an assistant like you wouldn't believe. I have soooo many people to friggen get back to today. I really just want a clone. Like for reals, still have to edit this video from being in studio yesterday, have the finish planning the #nerdherd, figure out my plan of action for Tuesday in San Fran, STILL have not uploaded that little blip for the UK show, I'm just .... blah. This is definitely the best of times and the worst of times. I hate being this big and still having no money. I need to pay people, so I don't feel guilty about asking them to do things. We have a staff of 34. THIRTY-FOURRRRRR. I just need to start adding structure to this beast. It's insane. It all happened so quickly.
So stressed. I am so stressed. The bitchin part about this though, is that I just use it to motivate me. I don't like feeling this way. Any time I feel even the SLIIGGHHTTEESTTTT bit of uncomfortable-ness, I change it. VERY quickly too. I just ... need to figure this shit out, or at least give myself a bit more of a break. It's just again really really really hard documenting all of this in real time. Success stories are actually successful before they start telling people how they did it. I've just doing it all in real time - which I personally thinks heightens things, but bllahhhhhhhhhhhh.
This isn't easy, but I love it. This site gave me an excuse to live, and just this excitement like I have never known. I know it's what I'm supposed to be doing, because to me it's like breathing. I just don't know differently. It feels too good to stop. I just have to keep on truckin! Time to get it done, baby! #NerdsUnite
