#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Iris- Goo Goo Dolls

BAHHHHHHH!!!! Still just kinda in lah. Slept for like 18 hours. It's just sort of hitting me in stages. There's just still too much going on, its like I expected this kinda stuff to hit as I got older, but dude - I'm 25. Not now. Part of me really wants to document what I'm feeling, albeit without revealing the person involved as they asked to not be posted on.

But this is like a big thing in life. I'm kind of oddly conflicted. I just can't do it myself. This is when having a production team would be like total awesome applesauce. Is it sick and twisted that everything that I experience, I just try to figure out a way to document? I think its a new art form, but then again - I'm also pretty twisted.

Talked to my brother for an hour last night. That was pretty good. We hadn't spoken in months ... I missed him terribly. His poor girlfriend, I called her at first just to kinda be like, hey really need to talk to my brother. And I just lost it. Like total, blubbery chick couldn't speak a word type lost it. Certain people's voices have a way of just touching you. All it took was for her to say hello - and I was a goner.

Been watching a lot of Netflix. Beetlejuice, Dexter, Californication, Groundhog Day, its amazing how much TV i have been missing out on while working. Part of me still wants to just be curled up in a little ball, but yes - I have showered and am up and going. Today is my last day of relaxation. Tomorrow is game time before this thing that I have Monday. Work keeps me going, work has always kept me going. Fortunately, we have a very big week coming up.

Just feeling incredibly sad. Not really looking to talk about it, just trying to figure out a way to co-exist from a safe distance. Thanks to everyone so much for the love and support. You guys really are my saving grace.

All my love. xoxo

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