#Fact: I experienced quantum superposition after hitting one million views on Reels
My first reel on Facebook went viral.
The series total now stands at 4.3 million, and quantum superposition happened not once, but twice.
It was like a literal glitch in the matrix.
I’m not sure if this is a red pill or blue pill moment, but I am damn sure what I experienced.
Maestro …
This year, I went viral six separate times over the span of six months (as noted in the graphic shown above).
It was career changing, and thus with such a series of moments, I changed up my own game and focused on what I could do to “move the needle.”
The “needle” in this case, is my own after a life changing diagnosis of not only being autistic, but I also have a sensory processing disorder called synesthesia.
While there is a lot of “buzz” about the condition, I know what I experience and wanted to find a way to balance the literal buzziness I experience on a daily basis.
I’ve already been internet famous, so the idea of putting out more content without intention didn’t interest me.
This isn’t just a diagnosis, I now know I fundamentally experience life differently – which is the “why” I have spent so long trying to figure out through documentation of my own experiences.
I’m also a niche within a niche in that I have projector synesthesia – meaning I literally experience what I say I am experiencing. I can imagine it’s like living in a world of Dr. Seuss, only I don’t know what it’s like to not have it, so I can’t really say for sure.
What is “normal” anyway??
I’ve never felt more confident and as someone who has been in various forms of TV development, I have sat in a room and TOLD PEOPLE that there is no way you could tell the whole scope of my life. It’s not believable that all of these things (both good and bad) could ever happen to one person.
I WAS THE ONE TO SAY THIS.
DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY YEARS I HAVE SPENT WONDERING WHAT MY MISSING LINK IS?!!?!
NOW I KNOW!!
I’ve known I live life with a broad spectrum, it just never occurred to me that I could be ON said spectrum.
This is a big big problem how far I fell through the cracks. My brain is wired differently and what that means, is as long as I am moderating my sensory intake and stress, I’m naturally predisposed to “pick up on things” that aren’t visible (without said condition).
I see and hear vibrational energy in the form of auras and hearing “tones/ notes” in people, places, and things.
Now that I know this, I can now tell when something or someone is “off.”
It makes me really good at crime fighting (which I’ve mostly used it for) but it also opens me up to other “things” that even I do not have the words to explain (as I finished high school at 16 in 3 years and only have a 10th grade science education).
Luckily, I’m friends with nerds, and super smart ones who were able to describe what I experienced.
Last December, I woke up and knew I was about to hit a million views on this reel.
It was my first Facebook reel, and I laughed thinking, “this is like an internet urban legend.” I can try and shy away from internet fame, (just to make sure my mental health is in check first) but here it is … this time without trying.
AND the second reel in the series TALKED ABOUT MY FRIEND WHO WENT VIRAL FROM THE TARGET AD THEY WERE FEATURED IN.
See the little boy in the ad?
He’s not so little anymore, but his name is Colton Robinson and his mama and I grew up together. Our dads met in law school when I was younger than he is featured in this ad.
The Robinsons/ Jordans are the.best.family.ever.
I know because you’d really have to be a magician of some kind to be 32 years into a friendship and still not be an asshole. I SHOUTED at my favorite watering hole when I saw Colton on the ABC Nightly News (which played pre-Jeopardy which I watch religiously).
I was saying how amazing it was that she went viral and THEN I went viral.
I could tell by the rate at which the numbers were climbing that Saturday that I was going to hit a million views sometime within the next few hours.
“We have to celebrate,” I said to Jeff. “This is a career defining moment.”
We then went to our local brunch spot and were greeted by one of our favorite servers.
We asked our favorite server at our favorite brunch spot for our favorite bottle of sparkling rose as we indicated we were here to celebrate.
“I’m about to hit a million views on my first Facebook reel,” I said beaming with pride.
“Congratulations,” he said!!
“There has always been something ‘different’ about you guys, but I had no idea what you do for a living.”
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“That’s you?!” He said excited having heard of it. “This one is on the house,” he said.
Taking in all of the gifts the universe has to offer, Jeff proposed a toast. “You’re KILLING it, and to the surprise of no one.”
iPhone still in my left hand, I cheersed with my right hand flipping back to FB to check the numbers.
We ordered the rest of our meal as the numbers inched closer to the seven figure mark.
The two things I am most proud of is no longer feeling like my mental health is something I have to “fight against,” we get to just coexist together … and then the person I also chose to coexist with. Jeff aka my husband is sincerely one of the best people I have ever met.
We both did the work on ourselves to know when and who the “right” time and person was for each other. We’re like bookends. We are totally the opposite, yet the same on what matters the most. It keeps our lives “interesting enough” to never run out of things to say, but also “on the same page enough” to keep wanting to spend time together.
Jeff filmed right as I hit a million, as I experienced a pride I hadn’t really felt before.
My career felt as aligned as myself, and my marriage.
It was the trifecta of life goals that otherwise seemed unattainable.
“Everything is falling into place. It wasn’t my job to force it, I just had to understand what my own pieces were and (most importantly) trust my instincts,” I said to Jeff.
We then called Facetimed our families, who were all equally as excited. Gone were the days of turning blue in the face explaining “how cool something that I did on the internet was.” Even my 80 year old mother in law understands the value of a million views.
Enough celebration time had passed before we asked for the check.
“Congratulations once again, he said, followed up with an “always good to see you guys.”
Now this is where this gets interesting … let me draw you a picture:
This is where we FIRST said goodbye to our favorite server.
I was standing up, and turned around technically behind me and or over my shoulder.
I waved and thanked him again, so it wasn’t just words coming out of my mouth – I physically moved my chair closer and waved my hand.
We then walked in front of the restaurant on the sidewalk towards the other stores and parking lot next door.
RIGHT BEFORE we made it to the parking lot, we saw our favorite server AGAIN coming down the sidewalk past the parking lot we were walking towards.
He said THE SAME THING HE JUST SAID TO US … “congratulations once again” and followed up with a “always good to see you guys.”
Here’s where it happened:
We just turned our bodies towards one another as my eyes turned into saucers.
We both knew we had said goodbye not once … but twice.
Did I mention it’s physically impossible for that to happen?!?!?!?!
He would have had to jump the relatively high Covid patio fence, RAN down the street (without us noticing), been a fast enough runner to get there faster than us … and did I mention he wasn’t out of breath??? His apron was still clean and crisp.
I was so convinced with what I saw, that logically the only explanation that I could see was he OBVIOUSLY has a twin that has been hiding in the kitchen for the last eight years.
In that moment, Jeff and I experienced a phenomenon called Quantum Superposition.
What is Quantum Superposition, you ask?
Think of it like your friend who can’t decide where to go on a Friday night. They’re texting you, “Should I hit the club, chill at a coffee shop, or just crash at home?” Until they makes up their mind and tell you, they’re kind of in all those places at once, in a metaphorical sense.
Now, apply that to the tiniest particles in the universe, like atoms and electrons. These particles can literally be in multiple states or places at the same time. It’s as if they’re partying at the club, sipping coffee, and sleeping at home all at once. This only changes when we measure or observe them, and then they’re like, “Okay, I’m at the club.”
This is the backbone of quantum mechanics. It leads to all sorts of possibilities, like quantum computers that can solve problems faster than any supercomputer by calculating all possible outcomes at once.
Jeff and I simultaneously experienced this … together.
Except, instead of measuring the singular possibility, BOTH possibilities occurred within a split veil of the other. AND WE BOTH SAW IT … which to me, is the cooler part. Talk about knowing you’re on the literal same wavelength as your partner.
As you can imagine, the rest of our walk home was relatively quiet.
We were both in a complete state of shock.
THEN, this past summer … ::insert snobby sounding voice:: we “summered” in Henderson Nevada.
Because obviously I would be in the same city AT THE SAME TIME that not only “non-human beings” were reported to 911, but also Tupac’s murder suspect would be arrested.
On August 27th, Jeff and I went to a local watering hole called Carl and Martin’s.
Shout out to Danny, and the BEST shuffleboard table I have ever played on.
I’m not sure if it’s the autistic in me, the ADHDer, or the synesthete, but there is something VERRYYY satisfying about the shuffleboard table at Carl and Martin’s.
The sand … the smoothness of the table … the sound of the pucks … the satisfaction of a hanger – on-er … I didn’t know it at the time, but I broke a record on the table for the first person to hit three four’s in the same turn.
I know this because I bragged about my score/win to Danny the bartender and how I closed out a game in a single turn. I had three fours (equaling 12) plus a three … making a final score of 15 (thus winning the game).
Somewhere during a non-record breaking game, I said to Jeff, “oh this is Go Your Own Way by Fleetwood Mac.” I then caught myself, and said, “no, this must be a remix, it’s a different band.” Listening again (only a few seconds had gone by at this point), I heard the distinct chorus of “Voodoo” by Godsmack.
“Wow,” I said laughing. “Got that one WAY wrong.”
We continued game play as the next song came on.
It was “Go Your Own Way” by Fleetwood Mac.
I stopped dead in my tracks OVER the tracks, and called Danny over to explain what just happened.
It wasn’t that I “just” heard it, I CALLED IT OUT!!! I SAID what I heard. I KNEW BEFORE I KNEW and the songs merged. IT SOUNDED SO WEIRD!!!
It was like silk was sewn into plaid. It was an “icky” feeling (which I felt because I’m a synesthete).
They played concurrently and it sounded like Godsmack (the artists that sing Voodoo) were actually singing “Go Your Own Way.”
The two songs sound NOTHING alike … listen …
I heard the current band play the song that was going to play NEXT on the jukebox.
It was another glitch in the matrix.
What I experienced (I’ve learned) is called Quantum Entanglement.
Think about having a pair of magic dice. We each take one and go to different places, like you’re at home and I’m at a coffee shop. When we roll our dice, something magical happens. Even though we’re far apart, if your die lands on a six, mine will too. Or if yours is a two, so is mine. It’s like they’re connected by some invisible string.
This connection happens instantly, no matter how far apart we are. It’s as if the dice are talking to each other super fast, faster than anything else in the world. Even if you’re on the Moon and I’m here on Earth, the same thing happens.
Quantum entanglement is kind of like that. It’s a fascinating part of quantum physics, where tiny particles, smaller than anything we can see, behave like they’re connected. If something happens to one, the other one ‘knows’ and responds accordingly, no matter the distance.
What’s the difference between Quantum Superposition and Quantum Entanglement?
Quantum Superposition is like if you had a coin that could spin forever without landing. In the quantum world, particles like electrons can be in multiple states at the same time. Imagine our spinning coin is both heads and tails at the same time. It’s only when we look (or measure it) that it chooses to be either heads or tails. This is superposition – things being in multiple states at once until observed.
Quantum Entanglement, on the other hand, is about the relationship between particles. Remember our earlier chat about those magically connected coins? That’s entanglement. When two particles become entangled, the state of one is directly related to the state of the other, no matter how far apart they are. If you change the state of one entangled particle, the other changes instantly too. It’s like having two dancers perfectly in sync across a massive dance floor.
So, the key difference? Superposition is about one particle being in multiple states at once, while entanglement is about the connection between the states of two or more particles.
Jeff and I were on the same “wavelength” and experienced the same particle being in two places at once at the same time. Think of it like we were in the same car together. We both turned the station to 98.7 … and then flipped the station to 102.7. It wasn’t just that quantum superposition occurred it was that we experienced it TOGETHER.
In terms of the silk being sewn into plaid, I was on my own wavelength and experienced quantum entanglement independent of Jeff; I was on “another level” that created a glitch that allowed me to hear the current band on the jukebox play the song the next band was about to sing.
Time jumped – and I not only heard it, I said something about it.
I’m now just shy of 20 months from being diagnosed with synesthesia and have had two experiences that I wouldn’t have known how to put into words.
Synesthesia is a form of a sensory processing disorder. Guess how many people have an SPD?!!
After going viral to 4.3 million people, I talked to over 3,000 online and IRL who admitted to being diagnosed as having synesthesia, another 22,500 thinking they have some form of synesthesia, and another 645,000 questioning if they have it.
I’m really lucky I see auras and was able to get diagnosed.
The problem is there isn’t a lot of information out there about SPD so testing is limited. Even in the studies I researched the average group they pulled from was less than 100, and in some cases as few as 20 people.
It’s bullshit, and I put my own money where my mouth is and accidentally built a better product than what is on the market for people with SPDs.
I’ve spent the last year beta testing, aligning strategic partners, and towards the end of our Henderson summering experience, I got product validation (in the form of someone very famous who is going to help me take it to market.
I was warned in advance that I would get 5 minutes as a courtesy, but to also prepare myself that he might yell and hang up the zoom if he thinks I wasted his time.
I passed the 5 minute mark, making it to 30 as I passionately pleaded my case.
He told me to stay quiet and to “not get lost in the process.” Meaning, don’t drink my own gatorade, and to focus on the reason why I built what I built.
Ego is not my amigo, I thought but didn’t say.
What I did say was the sentence “thank you for your contributions to tech.”
It was only the second time in my career, I said that.
I’m onto something big. I know it, and I’m (more importantly) the right person to do what I am doing.
Synesthesia is a gift.
I just first had to learn how to be present with it.
Which is WAY easier said than ducking done.
