#Status: Single. A 6 Month No Man Mission (sex with the ex)
<editorsnote> Nerds, meet my buddy Tiffany. She's a love addict who is now purging herself of men in the hopes of finding a cure. Think she can do it?? She has given herself six months, and I only have one more thing left to say ... HIT IT TIFFANY!!</editorsnote>
#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @nomanmission
I'm not gonna lie, I have been missing my ex. Well, let me be clear, add an s to the ex, and that is really what I have been missing. Yes, I am a human being and I miss s-ex. Sex with the ex that is. I am on my "6monthnomanmission" but I am very good at justifying things. In my mind, on a cold lonely night, my NO MAN mission does not apply to my ex. I mean, really what is the harm in hooking up with the only person I have been intimate with for close to 4 years? Yes, I see the flaws in this plan.
Deep down, if I'm being honest, I think a part of me is on this mission because I don't want to ever go through what I went through when I left my husband. I left my husband who I was with for 7 years and immediately started dating my now ex fiance'. That did damage that is beyond repair to all parties involved. It has taken me close to 4 years, a lot of heartache, and a hell of a lot of demon fighting for me to finally forgive myself for that decision. So, when I ended my relationship with my fiance' I felt all warm and cozy inside knowing that I would not be hurting him like that because I am on my NO MAN mission. By "no man mission" I mean no man except my ex. That works, right? Wrong!
I get weak sometimes, let's be honest, a lot of times, and I end up texting my ex. Last week, texting turned into sexting. Because I know where my ex has been, and I know what we have together in that department, I could definitely justify a night in his bed. I would have done it too. Thank God I was just 2 short days away from my brazilian wax appointment or else I would have jumped right back down the crazy rabbit hole that is our relationship. Long live, Vanity!
Looking back, I am so happy that I let my vanity keep me from going over there. I still miss s-ex a lot, but I am starting to feel a little more sane these days and going over and spending a night in bed romping with him would send me into a tailspin all over again. So, what did I do? I deleted his number from my phone. Yes, I do know his number by heart, but if it isn't programmed in my phone then it will be a little more difficult for me to contact him. Just a little, but if I have to dial his number every time I want to text or call him, I will be reminded of why I took his number out in the first place.
My name is Tiffany, I miss s-ex...but I won't do it. 6monthNOMAN (including my ex)mission in FULL effect.
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Editors note: This is amazing that you're starting to uncover more of the root of your addiction to love and men. Can you tell us more about your husband and what happened?? ROCK ON!! Thank you for being so brave!! xoxo