#NerdsUnite: I just graduated college!! But um, now what?

<editorsnote> Nerds, meet my buddy Megan. She recently just graduated from SDSU and is now entering the world with a fresh pair of eyes in a stinky economy. In these series of posts she will discuss her thoughts and discoveries as she ventures out into the real world. Hit it Meg!!! </editorsnote>

#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @MegCorbs

This is so hard to admit, to myself, let alone to the whole TNTML community but sometimes it feels so good to just let it all out. To let the monsters out of my head even for just a moment.

I've been feeling so incredibly vulnerable and down lately. 99% of the time in a very positive and happy person. If I had a dollar for every time someone said "you smile ALL the time" I'd be a rich, rich person. That being said, let me explain where my head is currently at.

I've been unemployed for a few months now. While I do have an amazing job waiting for me in January it's been hard for me.

I have been working since I was 14 and extremely proud of that fact. Plus it helps my ADD mind to have something to keep me busy.

I'm one of those weirdoes that actually loves working and accomplishing things on a daily basis. There is nothing better than coming home after a long successful day at work.

I haven't had that for quite some time now. While I'm happy I am out of my last job, it still doesn't make the whole unemployment thing any easier.

I don't like feeling that I don't have any worth. To see my bank account shrink instead of increase. To not have stories to share at the end of the day.

Last weekend my sister had her reception for her wedding. All the family and family friends that were there were asking what I had been up to. Not going to lie, it was definitely a hit to my ego to say "I'm in-between jobs until Jan."

I know that what I have in front of me is incredible and something to be excited for. It's just so hard to make my ego take a back seat for a few months. 

I need to realize that it's ok to be down once in awhile. It's because of these down times that the good times feel that much better.  I do have a lot to look forward to and my life is only about to get crazy exciting so if I'm bored or feel worthless for a few more months, that's ok.

I am going to be ok.

#nerdsunite

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