#Randombling: In the mind of @LikesGoyBoys
#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @LikesGoyBoys
Despite having a decent working knowledge of MySQL, I've found that whatever is keeping my website from being fully functional is beyond my immediate control. Tech support will have to clean house for me whenever they get around to it.
I love Twitter, it's brought some of the most amazing people into my life. Some of you think of it as Twatter, and rightfully so, there's always the equivalent of somebody talking to themselves on the subway; Kanye West does that, it's ridiculous. I don't follow him despite how much I enjoy absurdity. Kanye can go a little dada sometimes but I can't follow the guy. It's a shame he doesn't interact more, because that's my favorite thing about Twitter. There's all this unabashed interaction and constant communication. I was taught early on that silence equals death. If you've ever been in a situation where communication is withheld by force, you learn how much words and body language matter. The value of being held as an esteemed, fellow human being is more important than you realize when things really go to shit, even if you're fairly cynical.
(Yeah, shut the fuck up. I hate hate, too. I get it.)
The point is this; it feels like we're on the crest of a vast wave, and as much as I enjoy some aspects of technology and thoroughly despise other traits, after a really long week and a busy weekend, it's so nice to be able to @reply somebody and just say hi. I have never enjoyed talking on the phone. At least with text, I can edit myself, I can contemplate how I'll possibly be perceived, and then there are times when I type so swiftly and just hit 'send' on a whim.
Sometimes people say a lot and nothing is really behind it. Other people say so much with very little. All I know is that after enduring a time where I was stripped of a lot of things most of us take for granted daily, it all added up. I had to eat some shit and do some dishes at the Karma Cafe. It's just good to know that not everybody has a poison heart, not really, it's been proven to me over and over recently.
If you're reading this, you mean something to me. I don't mean to go on a grandiose head-trip, but I hope you know that you're valued. Maybe you should remember that today if something lights your fuse and you're ready to go off like a motherfucker.
Some of you won't understand and tell me I'm being idealistic about things. I have to be, to a degree, or I don't think I'd have made it to age 27 to begin with. I wouldn't have made it through the past week. That's okay, I love you in the way you are able to accept my love, and even if we don't have the same perspective, you fill a void that I can't fill by myself.
Let's keep it up.
Love you guys.
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