I needed to get this all off of my chest!
#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @thtrnerd221
As I’m sitting here writing this post, I should be working on my script. I’m not going to tell you what it’s about quite yet because I want to produce it at some point. I’ll post about it when I’m finished with it.
That got me thinking. Lately I’ve been feeling like life should be scripted. I’m going through a lot of uncertainty in my life. I know what you all are thinking, what uncertainty does a nineteen year old have to go through? The truth is it’s not a whole ton, but what I am going through is a little overwhelming. I’ll 
list out the uncertainties.
Uncertainty #1—What I’m Doing After School
This is where a lot of the freaking out is coming from. I want to move to the LA area after I’m done with my undergraduate degrees (theater performance, communication and possible German). There are few things that could happen after I’m done.
One would be find a job in California, move out there and pursue an acting career while doing a comm. job, which wouldn’t be what I want to do for the rest of my life. I would really work on raising funds for Nerd Productions so that I could retain the rights to my scripts.
Two would be go to grad school out in California. I like this option, but I don’t know if I can afford this. I’m not sure that I’m going to go to school for film (acting or directing). What can a school teach me that I can’t teach myself through trial and error? (^__^)
Three is sort of a plan b. I would love to do a year of ministry. There are several organizations that I would love to work with.
Uncertainty #2—What’s my Plan for Undergrad?
I keep tossing around the idea of finishing out my undergrad at some school in California. I’m not sure that is the most economical idea, especially if I’m going to study abroad in Germany and possibly going to grad school.
We’ll have to wait and see what I find out when I start looking at schools.
So I guess that’s all for the big uncertainties in my life right now. I’m sure I’ll figure out everything, but I wish that it was all figured out for me.
The one problem with trying to figure it all is my parents. They don’t like all my wonderful ideas for my life.
Lily Allen summed all up in her song Fuck You. See below and enjoy!
Ooooo...btw I can't wait for school. I just have to wait until Tuesday and then I'm free again.