#Randomblings: That Nerdy Chick
Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.
#nowplaying: DMB - Trippin billies
So much going through my head right now ... pretty stoked to be going back to LA. More over just because I'm so excited to be figuring out how I am getting to San Fran ... aka The City. There are just too many ideas pumping through my brain. I'm not bound for LA for very long, but I just need that break ... NYC has been great, just non-stop meetings. It has been nuts to not only produce the content and run this site, but to sit in meetings all day .. blahhh!!! See, I love what I do. Even if it means working for Apple, (which I would KILL for) or for Twitter, or Microsoft, or CBS, I just need someone to take these ideas and work them. In a year, when the film comes out - this site will just be crazy, stupid big - but my ideas serve more of a purpose for the medium in general. And it's not who you know ... but who knows you.
Just found out today that a chickadee I went to school with passed away. I can't even tell you how many people that is that I know that have died; she was a sweet girl. Had a bunch of writing classes with her, and were friends on Facebook ... I felt a bit shocked in the moment, but then I just got motivated. I'm going to die one day too! In fact, that day could be tomorrow!!! And what does all of it mean at the end of the day! When my grandfather was on his death bed, he told me one thing ... to be happy. Totally have that down! My grandmother, taught me another thing, stop talking - start doing. So, when I say I am ready for life ... you guys have NOOOOOO idea what I mean. I was born for this. This is my life, this is my everything. Certainly, it sucks that I lost someone that I went to school with so young, but so what - we're all going to die. And if that is the case, you better KNOW that I am going to go out with a bang. I know no other way. Life is awesome, because life is a reflective experience. I know THROUGH AND THROUGH that I am awesome. As are all of you!!!!!! I am humbled, and grateful for every.single.day. I get to live life. Every day I enter the interwebz I sit there and realize that I know nothing. I just listen every day to conversations on Twitter, posts on Facebook ... it speaks VOLUMMMEESSS!!! Again, I have no idea the social ramifications of what I am doing, but that's just something I am going to have to deal with. It's working for the here and the now, and that is all I have. Life is a culmination of "nows." And now is the GREATEST TIME TO BE ALIVE!!!!!
And yeah ... time is up apparently.
This has been a very random stream of consciousness from a very nerdy chick.
PS. When my grandmother died, I actually shot a video. I didn't really know how to process what I was feeling ... so I figured I could at least film it an analyize it at a later date. Weird? maybe ... did it help? Absolutely!