Dear #TNTML, I need your help
First off, can I say Comic-con has been AHHH-MAZINNGGG!!!!!! Was chillin, illin, and villain with the cast of the Expendables tonight, bumped into Stan Lee AND Seth Rogan just chillaxin in my hotel lobby. (PS. staying at the Hard Rock Hotel ... totally cruise my FourSquare checkins ...)
Anyway, just had my meeting with Apple. And uh yeah, they're digging the nerdy talk. Here's my biggest frustration, I am about to be set up for the rest of my life off of ONEEEEE of the FOUR huge projects I have going on right now. But, people just don't LISTEN!!! My bottom line is that if anyone just LISTENS to my ideas - of COURSEEE they will make money. Like DUH!! I say this as HUMBLY as possible, but I spend my day inside THOUSANDS of THOUSANDS of people's brains; a LOT has rubbed off. Even if I have all the money in the world and all the yada yada, I STILL want someone to utilize where I see these things going. It's never been about the money to me. I'm from Connecticut, I'm from money! It really never changes you, only the people around you. That's part of the BIG reason why I have never allowed anyone to invest in TNTML, or any of that - I realized I can live off of $155 a month. $135 keeps me livestreaming, and $20 keeps this site alive. NO ONE owns me. I, however, have to look at the opportunities before me- and OMGOMG OMGGGGG i loveeeeee me some Apple. I just have to realize that even if money isn't going to be a factor in anything I need for - pretty much as long as I live ... what would I want to do with my life? The SINGLE most important question that I have asked EVERY staff member, was asked of me tonight. I said, I just want someone to listen. Which is SOOOOO true!!!!!! I see this stuff, in a freakish, freakish way. I have NEVER EVER been wrong - and that's weird. But I KNOW what people are doing, and I KNOW what people are thinking, I can cut out the BS pretty quickly. Do I want to work for Apple???? I'll tell you this - I want to move to San Fran, or as they call it "The City." Then, I have to think about TNTML. I could never EVER turn my back on you all. If it weren't for EACH and EVERY eyeball on this blessed little site, I would be nothing but a crazy chick with theories ... but now what? I built this site honestly, as a portfolio ... which turned into a revolution ... which changed my life ... but now what? Where do I go from here??? I don't know what any of this means ... but I am clearly big enough that Intel, Microsoft, MGM, and CBS have tried to hire me ... but for the FIRST time tonight I actually wanted to consider it - on freelance or something flexible enough to execute all my current commitments.
I document things like a diary. I don't have anyone to bounce ideas off of. You guys ARE my brain!!! My family is hanging by a thread, my friends think I'm weird, but I go anyywhheeree and I get "do I know you from somewhere?" Yes, www.talknerdytomelover.com - this site is HUGE! Too huge to still be run by a single person ... my lawyer told me last month that some BIG companies would be interested in meeting with me (big being translated to 1,000,000 plus visitors a DAY) ... I just don't know what to do. So, I will say, that I know nothing. I am grateful for this evening, grateful for this life, and just say that I will survive only in the next 86,400 seconds of the day that have served me purpose beyond comprehension.
