#NowPlaying: Gives You Hell
#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @JenSquard
I had a long chat last night with the super inebriated @Seven16, and it really got me thinking about my own relationship with my dad these days. Or lack thereof. I have none, and that is mostly his choice, but it is what it is. It's not nice and it doens't make me feel good, but I'm dealing with it.
He was never supportive of me, and often told me that I would never amount to anything. He thought every choice I made was dumb because I made it without his consultation first, and was embarrassed that I was an academic instead of an athlete. It didn't matter that I was actually quite smart and very well kind and sincere, even as a high schooler, all that mattered was that I did what he said.
So now that I'm all grown up and junk, I like to reflect on the fact that I did it without him. I am strong, happy and successful. I have made tons of great life choices, and have succeeded on my own. I am a college graduate, a respected professional in my industry, and a contributor to this bad-ass website! I did it all without any of his support - financial or emotional. I know the fact that I don't need his advice or help is the reason we can't have a relationship. He just doesn't know how to have an adult relationship without being the "parent". This song mostly sums it up perfectly. And I know it has to give him hell.