#Randombling: Baby Steps
#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @maniacalmorgan
Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.
#NowPlaying: Silverstein - Rain Will Fall
Oh em gee, can I start of by saying I am freezing my ass off? I know it's only in the 60's, but it's the rapid change in temperature that is killing me. I'm also recovering from a little 24 hour cold that I had yesterday that was probably brought on by the weather. I've hated them on the past, but what I could really use right now is a Snuggie. That's right... a freaking snuggie.
The more effort I put into relationships, the more pain in the ass it becomes. I got the "let's be friends" talk from the preliminary date girl a little bit ago which I was totally cool with. We just weren't connecting romantically and wanted different things. It happens and she's a totally cool chicka either way. I can't get a read on this other girl I'm talking to. Via text, she's flirty, sweet, and freaking awesome. When I see her irl, she is much more reserved and acts like a totally different person. It's confusing! I know things are easier via text, but yeah. Either way, I do like her, but I've decided to let her come to me when she's ready. I know she has some anxiety when it comes to the whole "dating" thing which is probably contributing to this. When she's ready to go out with a totally awesome guy... I'll call @tGumb. Haha, funny! Ma'am, if you are reading this. It should be apparent that I like you and think you're awesome. When you wanna hang out, let me know!
The last few times I've talked to my mom have been positive. I love my parents, don't get me wrong, but my mom especially can be... well... a mom at times. She doesn't understand what's going on with this website or what's going on in my life. I love her to death, but sometimes I just need positive support. I'm living my life and LOVING it. I'm going to do what I want to do. I'm a grown man! Well, more like a 13 year old trapped in a 24 year old body.
I finally started working on my resume. FINALLY! Thanks to Jen's loving push, I started it last night and will hopefully finish it today. I've worked for my current employer for nearly four years and have a very love / hate relationship with them. I've mentioned before that I've invested so much time and energy into this job with little to no return. I've accepted this and have realized that this job doesn't make me who I am. At the end of the day, I am still me and still awesome which has relieved a huge load off of my shoulders. I no longer stress about work. I go in, do my job, and go home. No emotional attachment. Despite all of this, I am still not 100% me. I'm working on finding a job in Social Media where I can let my creativity flow. Being free from my current job will help me finally fully submerge myself in the heart and soul of this website. I look forward to it! True, I am "co-editor" of this site, but I feel like getting out of my current job will allow me to give TNTML the 110% it deserves!
I want to finish this by saying how appreciative I am of everything in my life. Jen Friel is an awesome friend and I am honored to work for her. She means a lot to me and I can't begin to express my gratitude to helping me find out who I am. This house that I share with Jen, @tGumb, and Stouty is so amazing. I've expressed my gratitude of Jen, but @tGumb and Stouty are amazing people. I've only known them for a short period of time, but look forward to lots of good times. They are pushing me to be free... to be me! Of course, I have to give a shout out to all of the TNTML family. All of our contributors have been so inspirational and positive throughout everything. You guys are definitely family. Lastly would be all of you guys reading this website. You facilitate our unapologetic awesomeness and I am very grateful for that. Much love!